Sometimes I couldn’t help myself feeling guilty. Guilty dengan anak-anak. Guilty for not giving them my utmost attention, undivided love.
Kadang2x I get remarks like “Kesian Zara, craving your attention. Cakap kuat2 just to get your attention”. Another time, aku plak yang talking to myself “Kesian Ziya, she didn’t get my full attention macam Zara did dulu”.
Kadang aku pk, maybe cepat sgt aku pregnant kan Ziya ni. Tapi bila aku tengok deme mengekek giggling playing together, I couldn’t help thinking to myself, “nasib aku beranak sorang lg, tak perasan boringnya Zara dulu main sesorg”.
So, azam baru aku tahun ni is to give them my utmost attention, undivided love. Nak jadi the best mother to them. Nak bg them chance to try and experience new things. And bak kata @LinGhazale, nak cuba harungi hidup without marah segala.
Semalam aku baca blog @azzamoro, dia pun ada concern yang sama. Aku wonder, semua mak ke rasa gini. Korang macam mana?
samala .. aku siap terpk nk resign bake.. tp boleh ke? anak baru sorg tp tak dpty bg 100% commitment.. tahun ni nk cuba kurangkan bende2 yg buat masa abis.. tp you are lucky si zaraada adik.. aku si ff tu siap nangis2 everytime balik dari kg sbb dok syok ulit cousin. hopefully rezeki aku cepat smpai dptkan ff adik (not that easy laaa) .. huhu
Comment by yulie — January 27, 2012 @ 11:59 am |
aku for a fact tau, kale resign bake pun, x byk beza not dgn keadaan skrg. maybe ken a kurgkan byk2 benda2 lagha kot. hehe…
doakan ff dapat adik cepat….amin!
Comment by zamaiza — January 28, 2012 @ 12:36 pm |
mmgla. sebab tu aku tak sabar nak anak dah besar2. bile dah besar sikit dalam 2 yo paling kecik aku rase aku dah boleh bahagi2kan perhatian. ni yg kecik pun berdukung lg sure kite asyik ngn dia je. cepatla masa berlalu huhu
Comment by azzamoro — January 27, 2012 @ 2:10 pm |
betul…aku pnh bgtau cikgu psl zara kurg makan, asik nak bersuap. cikgu kata mb tu cara dia rebel, nk tunjuk kt aku kurg attention nya dia. bila aku ckp, adik tu aku susukan jek. yg lain time dgn zara, cikgu ckp memang la…tp adik minum byk kali sehari, so mami peluk pun byk kali sehari dan lama. sedih akuuu…..
Comment by zamaiza — January 28, 2012 @ 12:38 pm |